I'm sad and angry...

[therock1811]

Where should I begin?

1) I overslept and almost didn't make it to school this morning.
2) I was supposed to ride the bus this morning but missed it.
3) My stepdad decided he was gonna make me look and feel like a jerk, telling mom I had planned on not taking the bus all along.
4) I am stressed out because I have doctor's appointments and tests and school and everything else, so I'm frustrated too.

What kind of crap is this???? What kind of dad is he??? Apparently not one who cares how others feel!

[Amanzi]

Oh Jeremy, Im so sorry you had such a bad start to the day and have stresses that seem overwhelming at the moment.

I pray the Lord will give you peace and assurance that He is with you to be your comfort.

[weathermom]

I have found that when I am stressed about something I sometimes "take it out on my children", I have less patience and sometimes jump to conclusions. They just see me as the mean unreasonable mom, not realizing that I am worried about things that I feel are too burdensome to share with them. I understand your anger and frustration with your stepdad, but try to give him the benefit of the doubt. Maybe he will apologize later?

[vbhoutex]

Jeremy, definitely a tough day to start your day!!! Just think about all of your wonderful friends here at STORM2K and that should bring a smile to your face.

Meanwhile I'm praying for comfort and relief of your stress and aggravation.

[therock1811]

See here's the problem with that. He does this CONSTANTLY. It's a pattern with him. You do one thing wrong he's all over you like stink on manure(had a better word for it but won't use it here). I just feel life has handed me a big stinking pile of horse dung at the moment. And no I don't think he'll apologize for it. In fact I'm willing to bet it continues the MOMENT I walk in the door from school. I'm to the point I'm thinking about only going home for a little while tonight, and then leaving for good. I'm TIRED of him, I'm sick of living with a brother who calls me names that I can't say here, and I'm SICK of people treating me like I don't/shouldn't even EXIST otherwise! That's not happening here but it is in my real-time life and I'M SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for being so negative this morning, I'm just sick of living like this! I'm trying to be happy, but I can't take anymore and I had to let this all out.

[TexasStooge]

Don't worry Jeremy, I had days like this when I missed my bus a couple of times, but then again, some substitute drivers forgot about me.

Hopefully everything works out for you.

[therock1811]

It's not really the bus thing that has me wanting to move out. Yeah I overslept but did he have to say what he did? NO...I am sure I'll be happier on my own. But then he don't think I can make it on my own either, well I'll just have to prove him wrong.

[weathermom]

I can remember some pretty crummy periods when I lived at home with my parents. You have to be strong. Believe in yourself. You are obviously someone who cares about life, and feelings, and you just have to believe you are a better person than him. In being a better/stronger person, you have the ability to persevere, despite what others may say or think.

"My will shall shape my future, whether I fail or succeed shall be no mans doing but my own."

I don't remember where I first read that, but I try to live it.

Think through any decisions you make thouroughly before acting on them.

[stormraiser]

Jeremy, don't let him get you down, you have so much more going for you than letting petty things take your happiness away. My dad was the same way and it came near to ruining my life, but I had to start living by what I knew was right and not the awful things he would have me believe about myself.

[therock1811]

Well, here goes nothing. Getting ready to go home. But if I suffer more of the same kind of crap I'm not gonna be there long. I've made up my mind about next school year (may be sooner depending on the next few weeks). Next year, I'm getting an apartment somewhere and moving. That way, at least I'll be somewhat happy. And it'll help smooth the transition from living at home to living 100 miles away in Columbus or somewhere like that which is where I'll be in 2006.

[Skywatch_NC]

Jeremy,

It sounds like your stepdad and brother really have a lot of growing up to do.

And for peeps out there in society who tend to turn the other way or get their cheap kicks in making fun of those w/ a diffability...(they're not disabled to me)...anyway, society sure would be a whole LOT better if there was just understanding, caring and love for each other.

You're a tremendous asset to Storm2K, Wxbuddy!!

Your Storm2K Family loves and cares about you, Brother!

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

Eric

[Pburgh]

Boy Jeremy, I wish I could come over there a beat the crap out of those two but that's not the answer. Some people can be so very mean and destructive to our lives if we let them. The secret is not to let them. Sounds easier than it is. Please try to concentrate on the positives. "Don't let the ba$tards get you down." I love that saying. Don't make it harder on yourself by dwelling on "their" insensitivities and cruelty. You're a better and bigger person than that. Moving out will only make it harder on you. Hang in there.

You're in my thoughts and prayers. ((Hugs))
Karan

[TexasStooge]

Boy Jeremy, I wish I could come over there a beat the crap out of those two but that's not the answer. Some people can be so very mean and destructive to our lives if we let them. The secret is not to let them. Sounds easier than it is. Please try to concentrate on the positives. "Don't let the ba$tards get you down." I love that saying. Don't make it harder on yourself by dwelling on "their" insensitivities and cruelty. You're a better and bigger person than that. Moving out will only make it harder on you. Hang in there.

You're in my thoughts and prayers. ((Hugs))
Karan

Try telling that to a friend of mine in my hometown who has a hatrid against his parents. My mom told him to let his hatrid dwindle not once, not twice, not three times, but the entire 2 years he's been staying with my family.

[vbhoutex]

Eric, i love your word-DIFFABILITY- I think it is quite appropriate!!! It should be used instead of disability!!!

Jeremy, those are wise words from Miss Karan. Remember them and use them. We are here for you and are still praying that God makes this situation as it should be.

[yoda]

I echo everything that has been said Jeremy. Hope all gets better.

[Pburgh]

Texas, your friend is so very lucky to have the support and love of you and your family. What your Mom says is so right. It's really not easy to forgive but it is oh so worth it. Maybe some of that understand and compassion in your home will rub off on your friend and he will find the strength to work things out with his parents. ((Hugs)) for being such a great friend.

[azskyman]

On the journey of life, our perspective changes many many times. Sometimes we are on the receiving end, Jeremy, and we can feel powerless...and can be hurt and hurt over and over again.

But always we are learning.

We find ourselves wanting to lash out; to hurt someone as we are being hurt. We can choose that route or we can choose to run away. We can even choose to take the high road.

And always we are learning.

Taking the high road means leaning on friends, respecting yourself for who you are and what you stand for. It means treating others like you want to be treated yourself. It means setting the example. It means making your point without playing to someone else's level. Mostly it means loving yourself even when others seem that they do not love you.

And always we are learning.

At times you least expect it, and in situations that often seem unimportant, your perspective will change once again.

You will see your problem, your life, your stepfather, your family, and that moment in a whole new light. And you will use all that you learned during those experiences in a way that will mean something to you. You will discover some wonderful things about yourself. And people around you will discover them too.

Life has episodes of pain and disappointment. But it also has laughter and enjoyment. And it has comfort and love. And excitement and enthusiasm.

Each of those things adds to the value of your own life. Often not at the moment when they occur, but instead in the most unexpected place.

We here have watched you grow and change and become something more; something better.

In the days ahead something bright and good will surely come your way....and your perspective will change once again. When it does, you will be stronger than before.

You have a wonderful spirit, Jeremy. We all want to see it grow. Always we are learning too.

God bless you for who you are and who you will become.

[tronbunny]

Jeremy, they have their own problems..apparently, when they can't see your difficulty.
It's just not fair, is it?
Anyway, you didn't do anything wrong. somedays just catch up to us.
You'll be fine. You definitely have a good head on your shoulders.
Be strong, pray for patience. It'll grow.
Oh, and it's alright to express how frustrated you are.

[azskyman]

Here are some song lyrics that seem to speak to your situation too...young Billy Gilman was one among several who recorded this song.

There's A Hero....

There's a flower in the smallest garden
Reaching for the light
There's a candle in the darkest corner
Conquering the night
There is amazing strength In a willing hand
There are victories
That you've never planned
There's a hero
In everybody's heart

There's a fire inside of everybody
Burning clear & bright
There's a power in the faintest heartbeat
That cannot be denied
Go on and trust yourself
Cause you can ride the wind
You're gonna take your dreams
Where's they've never been
There's a hero In everybody's heart

Go on and trust yourself
Cause you can ride the wind
You're gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero In everybody's heart

[MGC]

Well Rock, seems to me you kind of screwed up. If I oversleep and miss work too often I will get fired. If I get fired I don't eat. You've got it easy in school right now. Just wait till you are an adult and don't have anyone else to blame but yourself for your actions. In reality, life is tough. I left home at 18 and have made my life a success. You can and will to.......MGC