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A broken record but for the 2nd night in a row.. A little bit of time before I go to bed.. I am sitting here crying.. (

I am so sick of having to put up with girls who think I'm not good enough if I don't talk about sex..

I am so tired of people telling me what would be best for me..

I am so sick of nobody telling me if they love me and why..

I am also so sick of having constant flashbacks to my most recent traumas {Casandra's situation, me and my ex's vicious break up, the 3/16 fire.. the tornado of 98 and the deaths of my father and 1 of my bestest friends}

I feel so great during the day a lot of times.. and then at night.. I collapse into these problems..

Please bear with me.. I'm so sorry

I sympathize with you John. Its the same here for me as well. I am fine during the day, then always become very emotional at home in my room before I go to bed. I sometimes end up going into an emotional breakdown. That is since my suicide attempt, my friends death, and other things as well. Don't worry, hang in there. It will be all right.

1 thing I can honestly say is that I have never attempted suicide.. I will admit I have thought about it at times.. But never tried

Right now.. Part of me is even wishing I could just disappear... {not die.. I mean disappear} and then re-emerge in a couple days..

I really feel scared! I'm scared 1 day I may end up collapsing under all my pressures... I hope you guys can help hold me up...

Cheer up!!!

Brent is right, John! Cheer up! Sometimes things just do not click sometimes; sometimes you are going to have down times usually followed by ver good times.

Take my past week for example: My friend Emily and I planned to go to a concert this past Tuesday night. I got her tickets this past Christmas. Both of us were very excited to hang out and attend the concert.

Monday night comes around and she is sadder than I have ever heard her. I mean, just plain downcast. Why, you ask? Well, she found out that her manager screwed up the work schedule, and she had to work during the concert. I let her know that things sometimes happen and not to worry.

That was a down time for both Emily and I. However, we wound up getting together that evening after she got off of work and hung out during the late evening hours. To tell you the truth, that was better; we were able to visit with each other!

So, John, things can change for the better! You just have to hang in there, partner!

Thank you Eric and Brent for your kind words.. I'll take them with me to sleep.. I'm going to lay down and 1 thing my pastor always says and 1 thing several others have said.. is that a good nights sleep can sometimes be the best medicine.. So I'm going to hope it works..

Josephine96 wrote:Thank you Eric and Brent for your kind words.. I'll take them with me to sleep.. I'm going to lay down and 1 thing my pastor always says and 1 thing several others have said.. is that a good nights sleep can sometimes be the best medicine.. So I'm going to hope it works..

A good night sleep does help, it definitely does! It helps rest your mind. And what is bothering you might, not always, be forgotten, or the issues may appear not as significant.

Plus, it is a brand new day! Hope you feel better, John!

Josephine96 wrote:Right now.. Part of me is even wishing I could just disappear... {not die.. I mean disappear} and then re-emerge in a couple days..

I really feel scared! I'm scared 1 day I may end up collapsing under all my pressures... I hope you guys can help hold me up...

Hang in there, Josephine96. According to the Law of Averages, you're due for some good times. Remember: The sun always rises.

P.S. As you can clearly see by the replies in this thread, there are an awful lot of folks pulling for you.

John,

YOU are one of many here whom I enioy "cutting up" with and having a grand ole' time, Wxbuddy!

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God Bless You, Brother! ((((HUG))))

Eric

Thanks for the compliments guys.. I'm actually having a pretty upbeat day.. and since I'll be watching the hockey game in a couple hours, I can see why my day would only continue to get better..

GO BOLTS