My sister just came over here to get some of Mom's stuff since I will be moving in the next few days.. I personally wish she would have taken all of Mom's stuff with her.. Now I feel like I'll be carrying excess baggage and what not.. Even though all of Mom's stuff that's left here and a few of my things are either getting stored and some are even being trashed.
Anyway.. She has a cute 4 year old son.. {my nephew of course}.. and I haven't seen him since Christmas Day of 03... You'd think he'd be a little happier to see me.. But the 1st thing he said when he came in with my sister is.. "do you have any food".. I know it's cute.. and I know it's probably going to be laughable by tomorrow.. But that made me feel bad because I feel like I have slipped off that kids' radar. He played around with some of my stuff. told me how he starts school next year.. But not once did he say "Uncle John" or even "John" for that matter.. Made me feel like to him I don't exist..
Mom told me he asked her if she had any food when my sis brought him to see her last week.. lol.. But for me it just didn't have the same laughable effect.
.. I know I'm probably making a mountain out of a mole hill.. But.. oh well..
Yes today does mark 5 1/2 years since Linda Couch passed away.. I know it's 5 and a "1/2"... but I think it's affecting me more today then I wanna admit. Maybe next chance I get.. I'll take a trip down to her roadside memorial that's down my old HS.. She was such a young, pretty girl with a bright future.
It's funny how my Sunday School teacher asked our class the opinion this morning of why is it we always see the good people dying young and the bad ones living on.. or the bad ones getting more rewards or better care than the good ones at times..
I think another reason I'm sad is because I'll be leaving here.. {not the apt.} but this side of town. I could care less about this apt. It's not mine! I always wonder when and if a roomie will come in. I've started to establish a bond with this side of town. My church is here, my grocery store is here.. heck.. my new walking route for exercise is here. I know I'll be headed back to my old community.. But none of my old friends are there anymore. I know the 1 I'll be with and his family both really care about me.. But.. It just won't feel the same..
I have already vowed to return to this side of town when I get some $ saved up and can afford it. But I won't be returning to this complex. I have had nothing but negative memories here.
I think I'm done venting now..
